The big day approaches

It has been some time indeed since I have written here, there are lots of reasons for that none of which are all that interesting really, the overriding one being a lack of free time and if I’m completely honest my drive to continue with the blog has waned somewhat.

Things in my life have progressed at quite a blistering pace since I met Fiona, the events of which you are all familiar with as my writing was quite prolific at the time. Since then I have a new home which I share with my beautiful Mistress, a new job ,a closer relationship to my family than ever before and on Saturday I will become Fiona’s wife, and her mine.

I almost wrote that this is the end of a long road to happiness but it is actually the start of a long road of happiness that I can’t wait to start down. I know this is a bit soppy and not really what this blog has been about but I think that is a reflection of where I am at now.

I started this blog, way back in 2006 (omg!) as a way to express a part of myself that, at the time, I kept hidden from pretty much everyone who knew me properly and only indulged with elicit activities and affairs. Later I documented my various relationships, the ups and the downs and I feel like I took a lot of you with me on the journey to where I am now.

Where I am now is the happiest I have ever been, I can be openly me, the submissive masochistic girl from London to my sister, all of our scene friends (of which I now have many) and even to some of my more open minded vanilla friends. I’ve made peace with past demons including some that I’d buried very deep inside myself. Fiona has moulded me into the person she wants me to be, but also into the person I want to be and I’ll never be able to express how grateful I am to her for that.

In January of last year, 2018, Mistress set me some goals to complete and at the beginning of this year I promised an update on those, so here goes:

Submit to a permanent body modification of my choosing

This was completed and then some! Miss had my nipples tattooed with hearts around them and pierced my septum. I also have a tattoo on my lower abdomen which is a heart which incorporates an F and finally I now have a Christina piecing.

Spend four weeks in chastity

This one unfortunately never happened, however this was more down to Mistress than me and she freely admitted as much and gave me a pass on it.

Contact and make peace with the person who caused her to leave London

This absolutely happened and I did write about it. This one has actually had quite a profound effect on my life and I have become, not friends but friendly with the person in question and she actually comes to me for advice quite often.

Give an orgasm to 52 people that she hadn’t met before 2018

The final tally was:

  • 34 men
    • 16 oral
    • 9 vaginal
    • 8 anal
    • 1 hand
  • 20 women
    • 17 oral
    • 2 fingers
    • 1 dildo gag
  • 3 trans
    • 1 oral, anal & vaginal
    • 1 vaginal
    • 1 anal

Speak to her mother every other day

I didn’t literally speak to her every day but I did keep a note of when I did and I surpassed called her on 50% of the days of the year which was good enough for Mistress. And my relationship with my mother has never been better.

Achieve an average daily views count of 500 on this blog

In 2018 I got 138,266 views on my blog, which is a staggering 52,747 more than the previous highest year I have had but still way below what was needed to achieve 500 views per day.

Buy a new house with me (Mistress)

This absolutely happened and we have spent the last few months turning it into a home, our home and we are loving it. Work on the dungeon begins in a few months.

Have her septum pierced

This happened, I now have a permanent hole in my septum, sometimes Mistress has me wear a ring in it, sometimes she uses it to attach a least, sometimes she puts a padlock in it and sometimes, she has that padlock attached to something or someone else!

Experience Domming a submissive

This didn’t really happen, it sort of did in that I tried it but it was highly unsuccessful and Mistress allowed me to stop before it got to cringy. It did give me a better understanding of what it is like to be the “top” in this sort of relationship though, I didn’t like it!

Achieve two of her fantasies

This was completed, I spent a weekend with a trans person and also recreated a scene from torture galaxy where my nipples were nailed to a wooden board and then skewers were pushed through my tits, then more skewers were pushed vertically through my pussy lips and electrified.

Fully expose her lifestyle to at least one person who has known her in real life for more than five years

There are actually two of my vanilla friends who are aware of how I live my life and the full extent of my relationship with Mistress. They don’t know any gory details but they know I am submissive, am a masochist and am controlled in certain ways my my partner. It hasn’t affected my relationship with them one bit.

Exceed her current “most painful torture”

This tied in with the Torture Galaxy scene, having skewers vertically through my pussy lips was absolute agony, much worse that through my tits which I’d had done before albeit a long time ago.

All in all I think I did a good job with those goals in 2018, I didn’t achieve them all but I did most and learn something from each and every one of them which Mistress said was the aim of them in the first place so she had no complaints on my performance. Although that didn’t mean I didn’t get punished for each one I failed on which made for a fun New Years Eve!

Something else that I have put quite a lot of work into it The Fet Library which is my fetish erotic story site. The site has been steadily growing in weekly visitors and I even paid for a little advertising to test the waters (didn’t seem to make much difference to visitor numbers to be honest). There are forums there and the site now has a twitter account where it will post details of new stories as they are published. Please check it out, register and enjoy. I’d love it if more people started using the forums there.

So, his will likely not be the last time I post something on this blog but this is the end of me posting about my kink related activities. I feel like I have given a lot of myself here and it is time to focus on just living my new life with my new wife (her look at that I’m a pet and didn’t know it!) so that is what I am going to do. If I have anything interesting to talk about I might drop in an post something but for now this is it.

If you want to get in touch with me the best way is probably through FetLife (painslutlois) which I log onto at least once a week but please don’t just friend me without saying hello first as I won’t reply.

Thank you so much to everyone who has kept coming back to read my poorly spelled posts and interacted with me over the years. This blog and by extension you guys have saved me and kept me going so many times when I was struggling with myself, life and everything really and I will be eternally grateful for that. I wish you all well for the future and hope to speak with you on FetLife or The Fet Library soon.

Wish me luck for Saturday!

Lo x

Finding someone

Hey everyone, Happy New Year, I hope you had a great time on New Years Eve and are looking forward to 2019, I certainly am! I’m getting married this year, how weird is that?!

Anyway, whilst I do intend to post here more often then I have been, starting with an update on my 2018 goals (spoiler alert, I didn’t complete them all!) this isn’t that post. This post is about helping someone I know get in touch with the type of people who might read my blog.

The girl in question has been reading my blog and been in contact with me for over six years, I have met her in person on a couple of occasions and can confirm that she is a real, sweet, beautiful woman. However, for various reasons she has zero online presence on non-Vanilla sites, she is the ultimate “lurker” (Sorry hun!) which makes it very difficult for her to get in touch with people to do what she has decided to do.

What is that you may ask. Well she is looking for an online only Dom or Domme to give her tasks to complete, control aspects of her life and generally have some kinky fun with but in a very anonymous way, quite similar to what I used to do through this blog and with various people over the years.

There are a few caveats but the main ones are that she will not share any information about her identity, she is restricted somewhat by her home life and will not share any pictures of herself. She wants to feel controlled and likes the idea of a contract being involved (written by you) and has assured me she is willing to go quite far within the limits that get set in the contract.

If you would be interested in such an arrangement then please leave a comment on this post making sure you are either logged into a wordpress account off that you enter your email address when commenting and I will pass your address on to her so that she can share more detail about herself and what she is looking for and see if you are compatible.

Thanks for reading and check back soon for an update from me xx

Anniversary

Anniversary

Wow, ten years, that’s a long time. Admittedly a lot of that time the blog has been dormant waiting for me to come back and pick up where I left off but still, it feels like an achievement!

The reason I have been away this time is because things were getting bad with my health again, work was getting extremely stressful, plus we have been renovating the new house, organising our wedding, my mother has been ill and something had to give which ended up being my online presence.

That’s not to say this isn’t important to me, my readers and the people I talk to online, you really are but probably less important than all of the things listed above, sorry! I have some things to write about and I’ll be getting on that as soon as I can.

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Holiday shenanigans – part one

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Going back a few weeks to the beginning of August Mistress and I went on holiday to Portugal. We’d rented a huge villa with five bedrooms, a pool and hot tub, it was absolutely gorgeous and completely over the top for just the two of us but Mistress wanted to spoil us and who am I to argue with her?

The first week we barely left the villa and in fact I went a full four days, over 92 hours, without putting on a shred of clothing which is a record for me I think. It wasn’t my decision, obviously, but I did find it quite liberating not worrying about what to wear all the time. Mistress did not join me in the nakedness for the most part which I also enjoyed, her being dressed while I am naked is a nice subtle (maybe not so subtle for “normal people”) reinforcement of our positions which I enjoy.

Whilst for that period I wasn’t afforded clothing, for the entire holiday I was afforded the relaxation of my “one orgasm per week” rule which was truly divine! In fact one of the days whilst naked was at the extreme other end of the spectrum to denial. After a leisurely breakfast I went to lay by the pool whilst Mistress took a shower, I laid in the sun for a short while and then moved my sunbed into the shade as I burn pretty easily and that definitely isn’t a pain I enjoy!

About twenty minutes later Mistress appeared in a bikini and sarong carrying a beach bag. She headed over to me and I smiled up at her from my prone position. Smiling back she took my nearest arm and buckled a leather cuff around it before laying it above my head and proceeding to do the same with the other wrist. Finally she looped a piece of rope around the top of the sun bed and tied my cuffs to it. I still had plenty of movement but my arms where obviously now restrained above my head.

She took her little bag of tricks down and knelt beside me and with a simple touch and no words had me lift my legs into a frog position to give her access to my holes. I closed my eyes in anticipation, my pussy had become wet as soon as I’d seen her coming down the stairs towards me and now as I waited to find out what she would do to me next I could feel the heat building there.

I bit my lip as she slid something easily between my lips and it push through my opening but all too soon it was pulled back out. Then it was at my other opening, I realise the first “dip” had merely been to coat the item in my ready supply of lubricant to allow it a slightly easier passage into my ass.

There’s no denying that my ass is well used at this point and not the tight hole it was before I met Miss, however it is by no means “slack” (disgusting word) so I still felt the stretching sensation as she forced the item into me and the satisfying feeling as it slid inside and my hole retracted around its base confirming it was a plug and not a dildo that she had just sodomised me with.

As it turned out my pussy wasn’t going to be left out, another similar shaped item was pushed into it leaving me feeling quite full down there and then some gentle pressure on the top of informed me to put my legs back down. As I returned to a fully prone position I felt something cold on the back of my thighs which was quickly revealed to be a belt as Mistress wrapped it around my upper thighs tight enough to keep them in position and buckled it.

Mistress knows me completely and intimately but I also know her so I knew what it was that now filled my holes. Whilst I was in New York Mistress had used the Lovense Lush and Hush vibrators to torment me from another continent, this time it was just from the other side of the pool as she laid down and I felt them gently come to life inside me.

These are the best vibrators/eggs/plugs I have come across, the sensations they provide are amazing. The lush in particular sits right against my g-spot and can have my cuming in no time if set to a high enough setting. Mistress had the both running but only on the lowest setting which was only enough to get my breathing going.

My upper body was slightly inclined in the sun bed so I could see Mistress across the pool from me, sun hat and glasses on either looking at me or the iPad propped up on her knees. I could see her hand moving across the screen and kept bracing for a change in the sensations but for at least twenty minutes they just hummed gentle inside me keeping my mind focused on them but nothing more.

Then, just as I’d laid my head back to relax and enjoy the sensations the plug ramped up to full speed causing an involuntary “fuuuuuck” to escape my lips after which the pussy vibe synchronised with it and I couldn’t say anything at all as my body tensed and arched.

She left them there for a minute until somehow she knew I was on the verge of coming and then she dropped them both back down to the gentle hum, it wasn’t a ruin, more like an edge and I was left extremely horny and couldn’t sit still after that.

My legs were bound to a degree but I could still sort of rub them against each other in an attempt to create a sensation between my legs which I did but completely in vain as the “almost orgasm” faded away and I was just left squirming for the next hour and a half as she randomly adjusted the power of the vibrations in my holes. Sometimes they would come up together, sometimes just one or the other and sometimes alternating between the two but always just long enough to get me close but not over the edge.

I don’t really know how to describe how it feels to be tortured with pleasure, or the promise of pleasure for so long. It’s a sort of desperation, she’d forced an orgasm to be the entire focus of my being but denied it me for over an hour. Then one time when she had both vibes on full and then slowly began to back them off again I felt genuine despair and said “No! PLEASE!” despite myself.

Mistress immediately got up and slowly walked around the pool to me whilst still slowly reducing the power in the vibes. When she reached me I was blushing, I hate it when I can’t control myself like that, I love being her obedient pet and begging her to let me come is definitely not obedient but,technically, it worked.

She looked down at me and said “Please what?” to which I just sort of stared up at her, in my defence my mind was completely fuzzy! After a few seconds it obviously became clear to her I wasn’t going to respond so she shrugged and said “OK” then used her phone to turn the vibes back on to full.

As my orgasm built quickly back up I watched her walk to the stairs, up them and out of my view just before that gorgeous warm relief flooded my body and I moaned probably much louder than I should have outdoors.

The thing is though, the vibrations didn’t stop, or abate, or give me any time to recover and my orgasm quickly joined into a second and then third and with Mistress nowhere to be seen the tsunami of sensation overwhelmed me pushing coherent thought from my mind as I writhed on the sun lounger for another twenty minutes until thankfully the batteries ran out of the plug and then shortly after the vibrator.

As it turned out Mistress had been on the balcony filming me the whole time and returned to hold me. My whole body was shaking, almost shivering and I was coated in sweat as well as whatever had leaked out of me whilst I was having a years worth of orgasms.

Eventually I recovered enough to form a normal thought and thanked Mistress for….well, all of it and then we took a swim together whilst the vibes recharged.

I have more to write about from holiday, this isn’t even the really good part yet but it has ended up quite long so I’ll leave this post here and move straight on to the next one, more to come soon x

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Back to it

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I’m so out of practice writing that I feel like this is going to end up being a terrible post, which isn’t great for my first one in a while so I’ll apologise now and get it out of the way, sorry!

Tons has happened since I last wrote properly which was July I think, that’s probably why the stats on here are so bad! I went on holiday, I decided to build an erotic fiction website, we moved into the new house, we set a date for the wedding and booked a venue….it’s a lot, I’ve been busy so maybe you’ll forgive the hiatus from posting.

As per the first paragraph… This was intended to be one big post starting with all the “boring” stuff of what I’ve been up to whilst I’ve not been posting and then going on to talk about all the fun stuff we got up to on holiday. However I’m struggling to write the second part and effectively express it so I’m going to post this part and then next week you’ll get the juices sexy stuff.

So yeah, we finally completed on the sale of Mistresses house and the purchase of our new home together. Despite my being a solicitor it has been quite a prolonged and stressful thing and I’m so glad it is over and we’re finally in.

The house is a mess though, we knew it needed work but somewhere in between deciding to buy the place and moving in we seemed to forget how much work it really needed. So far we’ve had two rooms decorated though, the lounge and our bedroom and they both look gorgeous. We’ve had someone come in a look at making the basement into a proper liveable room and that plan is on the back burner for the moment, it’s going to be a huge job just to get it to a point that we can begin making it into a dungeon, the toys will have to stay in the toy chest for the time being.

The other news, we went to see a venue for the wedding and we both absolutely fell in love with it so we have booked it. It’s an outdoor venue which is a risk with the weather in the UK but it’s too beautiful a place not to do it there. We’ll be getting married in June 2019, which means we have a ton of stuff to organise before then. We started putting a guest list together and it’s already out of hand!

Amidst all of this I decided to set up a new website! Mistress said I was crazy to even attempt this but when, whilst on holiday, I discovered that a website that I frequented since I got into the bdsm scene has fallen into abandonment I was upset enough at it’s loss to want to do something about it. At first I tried to contact the owner of the site to see if they wanted to sell the site to me but, like everyone else who tried, I got no response. Then I tried posting in the forums and like I mentioned before that got me a lifetime ban so I gave up on that idea.

Instead, whilst still in Portugal, I registered www.thefetlibrary.com and got to work when I got home. I learn some basic web coding skills a long time ago but they were rustier than my first pair of handcuffs so I had to watch some training videos and stumble my way through making the basic site. Eventually I recruited my sister’s boyfriend who is a professional software developer and he helped write some of the more complex stuff and later, fix all the mistakes I made that caused the site to come down last weekend!

So the site is up and people are using it, go and enjoy the content and see what you think. There is a forum there now too which I’m hoping people will use www.thefetlibrary.cafe and will grow into a thriving bdsm community. If you haven’t taken a look please do so, read stories, sign up to the forums and join the conversations or start one, post the link to the library wherever you can and get the word out. Thank you.

I promise next weeks post will be worth the read x

It’s alive!

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https://www.thefetlibrary.com

I know I’ve banged on about this a lot and not provided any real content on here since before I went on holiday but that will change soon I promise. That’s because after a ton of work over the last three weeks the site is finally live!

As of today the site is officially out of testing and is accepting new users and hopefully, new authors!

If you have written any fetish fiction then please sign up and upload it tot he site. If you know anyone who is an author send them a link. If you have a blog, are active on a forum or on twitter then please share the link as far and wide as you can.

For those of you that just want to hear about my crazy life I will be posting very soon about some of the antics that we got up to on holiday including how we (mainly Miss) thoroughly corrupted another couple that we met in a bar!