A little background into my 2018 goals, Mistress came up with these goals without my initial input and then we discussed each one at length. She insisted that I agree them before the became “official” at which point they became MY goals.
There is a punishment for each goal that I do not achieve, I do not know what the punishments are as Mistress doesn’t want that to be the motivator to complete them but I have been assured they will be severe.
I am going to expand a little on each of the goals that Mistress mentioned and give a little more detail explaining the reason behind each one:
Submit to a permanent body modification of my choosing
It has been a long-standing kink of mine to have body modifications forced upon me. Well not forced really, consensual but without me having any input in what modifications will be made. This has been done before with the laser removal of my pubic hair, the reduction of my clit hood and the installation of a large sealed clit ring although the latter of those was subsequently removed.
This will be modification of Mistresses choosing, it will be permanent and will be the first physical change of many that she had planned for my (her) body. I am very excited to start this.
Spend four weeks in chastity
A few people have made incorrect assumptions about this, the definition of chastity is: “the state or practice of refraining from extramarital, or especially from all, sexual intercourse”. The goal is to refrain from ALL sexual activity for a period of four weeks, which means no giving or receiving of any sexual activity, no porn, no touching, no talking about sex or sexual activities, not even any TV containing sex scenes beyond kissing.
The mistake many people made was assuming this meant I would be wearing my chastity belt for these four weeks, not so. The belt would actually assist me by physically preventing sexual contact, I have to achieve this through willpower alone. I am seriously concerned that I will struggle to achieve this and will have to make multiple attempts at it, which would mean more than four weeks of chastity.
Contact and make peace with the person who caused her to leave London
The argument Mistress made for this is that the memory of those events still hangs over my present day life in significant and damaging ways. She made the point that it has had a detrimental effect on my vanilla and BDSM lives for too long and I need to make my peace with it.
She explains it better than that and she makes a very convincing argument about it. I have already been able to obtain contact details for the person who started it all but I think it will take me a little while to get the courage to contact her.
Give an orgasm to 52 people that she hadn’t met before 2018
One stranger for every week of 2018. This should be an interesting and fun one, who doesn’t like giving people orgasms?! There isn’t much I can expand on really.
Speak to her mother every other day
When I get very busy I become terrible at keeping in touch with my family, it’s not that I don’t want to, it can just hard to find the time when we are both available to speak properly. This goal will have several positive effects, it will make my mother happy, it will endear Mistress to my mother and it will make me happy and guilt free.
Achieve an average daily views count of 500 on this blog
Last year (2017) was my best year yet, I got a total of 85,512 views on my blog. It sounds good until you work out that it only equates to an average of 234 views a day.
I know there are several things I can do to improve this, the most obvious being to post more often which is something I have struggled with the entire time I have had this blog but I can only try. I’m also going to turn off the notifications on Tumblr and Twitter and start posting my own notifications with more information and watermarked images.
Could I also ask that if you follow me on Tumblr to please reblog my new post notifications rather than just “liking” them. Liking them is nice but it really doesn’t help me get new readers interested in my blog.
I really think this will be difficult so any help and/or suggestions would be greatly received.
Buy a new house with me
This is fairly self-explanatory and is something we have talked about for a few months, the intention is to buy the “perfect” house together and we are currently looking although there are a number of issues to overcome first.
Have her septum pierced
I love the look of a sub being led by a ring through her septum but I can’t have one for work, right or wrong I wouldn’t be allowed to represent my company with a nose piercing.
So, the plan is to get a large gauge hole pierced through my septum and to wear a flesh tunnel piercing in it so that Mistress can insert and remove a ring at her pleasure. To be honest I don’t even know if that is possible generally or specifically with my anatomy, if anyone (who is qualified to advise) has any advice on this please get in touch.
Experience Domming a submissive
I’ve always said that I don’t have a dominant bone in my body and I still maintain that is true. However, just has Mistress has submitted before to give her a better understanding of what it is like to be a submissive she believes I need to experience the other side of this lifestyle to properly understand what it is like for her.
I’m apprehensive about this as I do not want to disappoint Mistress, the sub or the sub’s Dominant by being bad at it but I do understand what she wants me to get out of it and when the time comes I will do my best to be the best Domme I can be.
Achieve two of her fantasies
There are six of these that I haven’t done yet, I’m not sure which ones I will attempt to achieve this year but they are all fairly extreme and will no doubt be difficult but fun. I know that people have already contacted Mistress with a view to helping me achieve this goal so I am sure I won’t have any problems doing so.
Fully expose her lifestyle to at least one person who has known her in real life for more than five years
As anyone who has read my blog will know this absolutely terrifies me, although that may change once I achieve one of my other goals further up the page. The easy choice here would be my sister, she already has some knowledge of my lifestyle and now that she has come to terms with that she may be able to accept some of the more extreme details of how I live my life. My concern though is that while what she has learnt so far hasn’t changed my relationship with her, learning the full extent of my submissiveness might do and I don’t want that.
The point of this goal is to merge the two halves of my life, Mistress believes that living these two lives for so long has damaged, or at least limited, both of them. She believes people are more open to alternative lifestyles than I think and that I would be happier if my whole life was out in the open.
Exceed her current “most painful torture”
The most single painful torture I ever endured was having sharpened BBQ skewers pierced through my breasts. There have been experiences which were probably harder to endure than that but for a single act of torture I think that was the worst.
That was a long time ago and I know, and more importantly Mistress knows, that my pain threshold is now way lower than it was then. Mistress wants to move me forward in all aspects of BDSM which means in the area of masochism she needs to get me back to the level of pain tolerance I was at and then take me further.
I don’t know what would be more painful than that but I’m sure I could find some things on Torture Galaxy that she could try. Or, suggestions from my readers would be welcome!
I have actually already achieved one of my goals, Mistress hinted at it in her post, can you guess which one?